Decisive Decisions

A month ago, I reluctantly decided to take a huge step/risk in my academic life; and in less than two months, I’m starting this novel chapter/journey/risk. At times, I’m full of indescribable fear, uncertainties, feelings of inadequacy, anxiety, and concern; and at rare times, I’m anxious and eager to discover what God has in store for me. Who knew I’d end up where I’m at right now!

Forerunners

Immensely honored and grateful for the relationships that I’ve made throughout the past three years. I feel rich to have met and worked with few kind and genuine people who helped me in my decisions, propelled me to become aware politically and socially, and inspired me to become a forerunner in everything I do, relentlessly. Even the unhealthy relationships helped me to realize that I should trust my instinct and be aware of my surroundings. It’s not a bittersweet feeling to depart this chapter, but it certainly is a bitter one. All those sleepless nights, skipped meals, the constant exhaustion, the fun times at the labs, the drama, the tears, the laughter, Starbucks and Peet’s hot chocolate and matcha fraps, Boba milk tea, energy bars, the hard work, and even last minute work. Looking at my overall experience, I see a piece of an intellectual art that was painted, collaboratively. It’s not over. There’s only more of that coming up with extra maturity and growth.

Aesthetic Reality

You can’t have it all. There’s always one or two things that are inaccessible. That’s the Law of Earth. Presumably, it makes you think it’s unfair. But life is not a fairytale. It’s an aesthetic reality.